Yesterday was my birthday and I had to work on that day. I came to work and a couple of coworkers wished me happy birthday. However, out of all the coworkers that were there, I was really surprised that the rest of them didn't even wish me that. I found that quite odd because from what I was brought up to do, if someone is having their birthday today, regardless of whether you know them or not, to me it is something natural, just wish them happy birthday.
This was now the first time that this is happening. Last year, I was on the phone with someone on my bday and she asked me for my date of birth. She then told me: 'oh, it is today' but then said nothing. I just found that to be quite awkward and I thought maybe there are cultural differences in this.
Since that issue is still on my min, I'd like to do SF on it.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to expect that people would wish me Happy Birthday. I realize that not all people are brought up the same and that I should not expect anything from anyone.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to wish that I had a huge gathering to celebrate. I realize that celebrating with people is just another way of saying: I need friends so that I can celebrate or else this is just any other day. The next time it is my birthday, I will simply treat myself to something nice as opposed to wanting to have a party.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to hold on to memories of the past while growing up, where on each birthday, I would have dinner with my cousins and we would celebrate it that way because it was more fun when there are people around to celebrate with you. I realize that holding on to memories is just not helping me be the point of control. AS from now, I no longer choose to hold on to any memories from the past where I used to have people around me to celebrate.
I forgive myself for feeling nostalgic, sad, angry and wishful at not being able to celebrate this day with my relatives. I realize those feelings are just here to enslave me and make me want to seek something in separation of myself because I am seeking something that is out of me and that is enslavement. I realize that where a birthday can be treated just like any other day, I can simply treat it as a day where I honor my expression and birth on this planet and chose to just celebrate with myself by doing things I enjoy doing.
